Need address

I can believe I'm in the teens! I leave so soon. It still hasn't hit me.

I'm packed and ready to go. I have all my paperwork, I've had my last apt with my endo. I've pasted my PT test.

I just really need to work on getting up earlier. I really need to start two a days and work on my diet because I'm still a few lbs over my slotted weight. AHHH I have quit caffeine so I guess thats something.

I really would like everybody addresses before I leave just so I have a copy for basic or for after we move so please message me your address. THANKS!!!!

Last Day

Well yesterday was my last day of work. It was extremely hard to leave. I love that little girl so much!! I've become so close with the family I worked with and I'm going to miss them so much.

Leaving work means we are getting so close to basic. It doesn't feel real. I have 5 short weeks from Monday. I still have a ton to do.

Getting Marriage License
Get Transcripts
Get wedding ring looked at
Hair cut
Work out ALOT
Change diet
Quit caffiene
Change sleeping pattern.
Last Endo apt

All of these things will have to wait another week thought because were going on VACA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We leave Monday for 5 days in St Augustine. We are super excited! It's been along time since Chris and I have been out of town alone together and I think this may be the longest trip alone we've taken, including our honeymoon. Thats sad since it's only 5 days! Oh well. I'm just looking forward to having some stress free alone time with my love. We have lots of fun things planned, a hotel on the beach, a hot tub in our room, and good friends to see. I'm so excited!!!! It'll be nice and it's very much needed, however at the end of it I have a ton of work to do and that sucks! Oh well it'll be all good!!!

Tuesday - 56 days.

56 days till I ship
17 days till my last day of work.

Lordwilling the week after I quit well be able to go on vacation, however when moneys tight it all comes down to the bitter end so well see. I'm thinking if Chris gets this job he's hoping to (won't hear till next Monday or Tuesday) then we should be good to go. It's just rough cause I know that I won't get paid for the first three or four weeks I'm at basic so we gotta make up that time now.

I feel like we've come so far and yet we are so far away from leaving. Every day I think of something else that needs to be done before I leave. I'm feelin pretty stressed.

I've gotten back to the gym and man am I sore. It's a good sore though. I'm pushing thru. I've got to start cutting out caffeine soon and then soda all together. Then I gotta work on no more snacking.

I feel like things are closing in on me. I feel like everything is happening so fast and it's starting to freak me out. I've wanted to leave TODAY, right now for so long and now it's so close I'm kinda gettin scared. First time I've said that out loud. Anyways, I'm strong, I'll be ok. When I'm done working things will slow down alot...I hope!

Missing my hubby (he's in Tampa for the night before the GRE tomorrow). If I miss him this much for one night how will I make it thur 3 months. MAN now I wanna cry. This is gonna be really hard!

To do list

20 days till my last day of work.
17-41 days I have to take my PT test.
42 Days till my final weight in (must be the same I weighted in at MEPS...ahhhhh)

Need to get

My transcrips
Copy of Marriage Licence
Medical Records (Endo and Reproductive)

Here about the time I quite my job I'm gonna start dropping caffine. I think I'll switch to decafe first and then cut out coke all together. Not looking forward to that. I'm also going to try to stop snacking between meals. A couple weeks before I leave I'm gonna try and change my clock also and start gettin up at 5 and going to bed at 9. YUCK!

I feel like theres more to do but I can't think of anything else.

2 months!

2 Months
62 Days
8 Weeks

How is it July??

Once we get down to 45 days left I'll have to take my PT test, which I know I can pass but I feel very unprepared. I haven't been hitting up the gym as much as I should. I had the whole horrible leg sunburn, now super sore from softball and my really messed up my hi. I think I'm gonna have to just push thru the pain and hope I don't hurt myself further.

Hope everyone had a wonderful 4th of July. I sure am happy to be an American. Althought Not Guilty sure did suck! Even thought I think the state did a crummy job so murder and I can understand but the rest COME ON!

To the Nay Sayers

I know that everyone has thoughts and opinions on people in general joining the military and now me since I've put it out there. I knew that thered be a lot of nay sayers but I didn't think it'd get to me like it has. I guess I'm just sad that people haven't been more supportive.

For those that have asked/commented....

Chris is 100% on board. Yes there are been moments of doubt from both of us but he and I both know this is what's best for our family and he is on board and will always have my back. I supported him finishing his BA and he'll support me in joining the military and together we'll have a wonderful life.

Yes I'm 25, I don't feel like this is old but I guess some of you think it is. I am going in at a higher rank because of college so I'm not starting totally at the bottom. Plus there are a lot of people that go in with a college degree as well as you can join till your 42 so I'm no where close to that so I must not be that old. Guess I've got lots of time to have babies still but not to join the Army...funny how that works!

I don't think I'm crazy for joining the army in general or at my age. There are thousands of military families all over the world that make it work and if they can make it work so can we!

Yes I know were at war right now. Yes I know I'll get deployed. Yes I know I'll have to be away from my family. No i don't have kids so I'm not leaving them. Yes I want kids but all of you should know by now that I'm infertile that it's going to take a lot to have babies so I can't live my life anymore planning around kids, it's been almost 4 years of trying and we have none so we have to live our life and if God blesses us then we'll figure it out.

I know there are draw backs to joining just like there are drawbacks to any job, however what I do know is that I love the USA. I would do anything to keep living here and to keep those safe that I love. I will be making enough money to pay to the bills (more than were making now) I'll be able to finish my degree for Free, plus I'll have money for school for our children when we do have them. We need insurance badly, chris has had a couple seizures so he needs his meds and I have hypothyroidism so having medical care is important. Plus we do want kids and we do have fertility problems and that costs ALOT. We're to the point of IUI which is around $1000 a month with no insurance and as much as we want babies we can't afford that without insurance. The army will pay for a good bit of that. When we finally get pregnant the army will pay for me to give birth (thats if we can get pregnant in the next four years).

The army also gives me a lot of places to go when I'm done with my four years. I can stay in, I can move on to jobs that want you to have been in the military, I can go on to a job i'll then have a degree in. Or hopefully I will have kids by then and we'll have saved those four years that I can stay home. You many things are yet to be seen.

The military offers a lot of things we need and want. Chris and I are ready for a new life and a new start. We are very excited and ready to start this journey. We know that there will be hard times but if we can get thru a move, lost jobs, the loss of a baby, infertility, pushy family members then we can get thru this and come out strong and together! We love each other very much and can't wait for this next chapter.

I hope I haven't been to harsh or hurt anyone, i just needed to get out my feels and that is what this blog is all about.

Thanks for reading and for your support!

72 days to go!

Welcome all. I thought I'd start blogging about my movement towards joining the army. I've had an infertility blog for awhile and since thats been put on hold I needed a new outlet for my progress to keep me on point and an outlet for my feelings for the changes that are happening.

I can't believe I'm so close to leaving for basic.

Yesterday we went tubing with a bunch of friends. We had a blast but I got super burnt. It makes it hard to work out when it's hard to walk because your knees and ankles are so sore and dry. I've really got to stop making excuses about working out because this is the time when I need to be turning up the workouts and not missing them. The past few weeks have been hard with shin splints and set backs but I've got to get with it and start kickin it into high gear.

This week my goal is to hit the gym at least three times and to finish school strong so I can focus on army training!